Every time I’m feeling low and depressed I don’t want to write to here. Yet again I hate missing them.

Before writing was something that calmed me down. Now I just want to avoid it. It’s weird and confusing. I don’t know what to do about it.

I wish everything was like it used to be. Every time I feel like shit I could come and write something to here. Of course I wouldn’t let it become a depressive blog to read but I think it would be a whole lot better than to drown to my own thoughts like I do now.

I just wish that things would start going better and I wouldn’t have to worry about thing like that.

Sorry for the short post. Probably would have ignored you today as well but I think you need a better explanation why I’ve started to stay away when feeling awful